Overcoming Addiction – Personal Blog

What is known of the unknown?

The unknown is future, present, and past. We can not know all that is known nor unknown to be known.

The format of information that we have available to us at any given point is generally based on memories and individual perspective. It’s perhaps true that all individual perspectives are inherently limited as any inhabitant of the universe is multi-factorial featuring a unique blend of clarity and contrast.

An awareness of the unknown or unknowable seems to be a powerful tool for uncovering the deeper mysteries of life. Is asking a question more powerful than providing an explanation?

Let us aim to make the unknown known. And then afterwards, let’s practice unknowing so that we may practice knowing again.

Truth in life.

The truth is that your actions resonate with a unique frequency.

The truth is that each spirit in embodiment has a value, and a truth to their purpose.

In which ways can you take actions authentically to your values?

Maybe there is a guide within, connected to the truth of your own individual values (which may in some way align with the collective).

Removing barriers from the guide within.

While my journey continues, I am becoming more conscious of the barriers that have held me back from my inner guide.

Here is a list activities that have diluted or damaged my inner guide:

Video game addiction. My accomplishments include: became an overlord and internationally respected player in a massively multiplayer real time strategy game called Shattered Galaxy during my teens, a top 2% Masters player in Starcraft II, and highly skilled in other games like Halo 2, Super Smash Bros 64, Team Fortress 1 the Quake mod, Call of Duty original, and more). These games occupied my thoughts when I wasn’t playing, which made it difficult to spend my limited time on more meaningful behaviors.
Pornography. I don’t need a scientist or a researcher to tell me that it has realized negative impacts on my relationship with myself and my relationships with others. Never once have I thought, “oh wow, I’m so glad I did that.”
Processed food, foods containing highly processed oils, refined sugar, or other inflammation causing molecules. I believe that ancient wisdom is passed on through food, and that ultra-processed food is often an assault on the spirit.
Social media scrolling or anger-stoking. I’ve noticed that anger is a way for companies to generate engagement online due to the notion that anger actually feels kind of good. It’s easy to go online and find ways in which people who identify similar to you are being treated unfairly. If you believe you are just in your position, then anger can be a mobilizing force (or anger can be used to control the masses).
By spending time online excessively consuming or becoming angry, it detracts from my healing process. Unless these things truly matter to your authentic values, such as when I get angry about people’s health being taken advantage of. However, it isn’t ideal for me to get angry about random things that are ultimately irrelevant to my life. Attention, time, and even the molecules and sensitivity to those molecules inside the brain are important for motivation in doing what needs to be done.

What needs to be done?

Obviously fight the forces of evil!

Maybe even offer maps of healing to all who may be willing to accept.

I can’t help but think that it’s more important to identify sources of evil, especially if the entity is not completely corrupt, and to then offer compassion, forgiveness, and an opportunity for mutual healing.

While the scale of humanity and the complexity of society presents extremely great challenges to this goal, I choose not to discount the power of combined collective consciousness.

If somehow we are able to unite humanity with collective positive intent, this high vibrational power of consciousness could bring forth empowering solutions to for current and future generations.

Your body has an important message.

The more I learn about energy and metabolism, the greater appreciation I have for how limited my scope and knowledge is.

Energy transfer and the transmutation of energy are highly underappreciated topics for understanding the powers of the human body, mind, and spirit.

How does one sense awareness through their stream of consciousness?

I think the message may be deeply embedded within, presenting itself often through dreams, thoughts or ideas.

Purify your messenger.

Purify your body and mind by channeling consumption habits authentic to your values.

Then you will know.

What is the purpose of life?

Regardless of impurities within, the energies of masculinity will remain relevant for eons.

The perception of masculine energy is certainly related to the values, behaviors, and attitudes surrounding it. Because we all have unique, individual experiences, it would make sense that our internalized understanding is also individualized and not strictly from outside input exclusively.

Can masculinity really be understood without context from femininity? I think that masculinity and femininity exist on a spectrum with multiple axes and dimensions. Therefore, masculinity does not exist in a vacuum isolated from femininity because they are inherent together.

It is unfortunate that masculinity has been portrayed in a simple, one sided way. Masculinity can be exerted by any being. That is to say that masculinity is not exclusive to men or even to humans.

What are honored masculine archetypes?

Sometimes I think about the ways in which masculinity is exemplified such as the father / provider / protector / leader. I wish to aspire to these mature, royal ways and to be seen as a person with such powers. Unfortunately, the world is chaotic and I am imperfect.

In some ways, I feel that I have overinvested in areas of my life while underinvesting in others. I have strength and grace, the ability to forgive, and yet I still succumb to vices. I wish I was willing to let more people have access to my own personal power.

The mature masculine archetypes are a path of enlightenment because it represents the relinquishing of self for other. True masculinity can be soft like a blanket or sharp as a diamond. What matters is the relationship between the masculine energy, the self, and the others.

What are the valued feminine archetypes?

Aside from the motherly role, I think that feminine energies can help us realize the importance of other people’s needs. Feminine energy can be involved with both a tenderness for love and also a ferocity in the securing of nourishment for others.

I like when a woman in my life speaks up and helps me transcend some selfish behavior of mine or opines on the current aesthetic. A woman can bring much value in ways that are unique or not even currently revealed to the individual.

If my understanding of what it means to be a man is a vision of an ascended, honorable being, then how could it possibly be bad that I aspire to be such a man? I need to be a better man because both of my grandfathers were better men than me.

Women are the greatest inspiration to be a better man.

And better men than me are also a great inspiration to be a better man. I do not hold ill will towards a notion of hierarchy for I know that my actions and behaviors are what matter on this planet. I am not overly concerned about my status in this world because I don’t feel that the world owes me anything.

I do not put blame on the problems that arise with boys and girls and men and women. I just know that a lot of younger men have much less to provide for modern women and Western women are being specifically taught not to rely on a man. Plus, young women have greater options than ever before and they’re realizing that most dude’s lifestyles are not sexually attractive.

Masculine energy is vital to a thriving and throbbing sex life. The problem with men today is that they are pouring their masculine energy into video games and other relatively trivial pursuits. Simply put, most women do not value video game accomplishments to the exclusion of others. Even though we aren’t cavepeople, real life abilities are extremely relevant especially considering that women don’t need men’s money anymore.

Why is there so little, high quality guidance for young men nowadays?

Every person already has an innate mission.

I truly believe that every being has some innate mission and that as humans, we are fortunate to be able to be sentient enough to conceptualize and execute complex plans that have the potential to drastically shape future landscapes.

“At dawn, when you have trouble getting out of bed, tell yourself: “I have to go to work — as a human being. What do I have to complain of, if I’m going to do what I was born for — the things I was brought into the world to do? Or is this what I was created for? To huddle under the blankets and stay warm?”
Marcus Aurelius

Bees buzz around to support the queen and the hive. Rabbits nibble on plants and then poop out the seeds for new life in nearby areas. Algae converts photosynthetic energy into oxygen which supports megafauna like Homo Sapiens.

There must be a mission, a masculine mission for men to attend to. Surely, any person who connects to their masculine energy can benefit from viewing their existence as being a part of something greater than them.

Even though the notion of being a high status male can attract feminine women, a man does not have to be high status in order to be loved. As long as the man is aligned with his mission and his mission supports that which is greater than him, then I think a vibrant, sexual relationship with his wife is not unlikely.

It is very difficult to become an evolved being.

Honestly, if I was an evolved being, I wouldn’t even be writing about this because I would have something more pressing to attend to at this very moment. But, I am evolving and I can recognize many younger men who are having similar experiences to what I had in my 20’s. It is underappreciated that many men are expected to be seen as a person of privilege while they are actually being victimized and oppressed by video games, pornography, and drugs.

Let’s be real, America is in a high health crisis and Covid-19 is only exacerbating systemic issues that already existed. Being truly healthy in today’s environment is basically reserved only for the most educated and those born to health conscious parents. Most people are at an extreme disadvantage in their physical, biological, and mental health including men.

So I think we need to have more sympathy for a large proportion of men who quite frankly have very little to offer women of today. Yes, lifting weights and eating nourishing meals will certainly help on the sexual front, but the reasoning for why you do things and the regular habits and behaviors are truly key here.

We should honor the messages from inside our body.

I think most people realize when they aren’t in alignment with their mission and it makes them feel very uncomfortable. That’s why we do things that help us escape. It’s easier to run away and distract, but at the end of the day, we’ve contributed less to the mission and our time is running out.

It’s okay to cultivate a masculinity which contains natural impurities as long as we are grounded in the mission of service to others.

Let’s set the intention moving forward with mature development by nourishing the space for forgiveness. When we release the shackles of resentment and accept the challenging life lessons of universal wisdom, then we can transcend the self and leave a legacy worthy of thy name.

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